Nå er historien blitt bok. Terri Jentz svarte leserne.
Terri Jentz (49)
- Jeg husker landskapet som møtte oss. Dagen begynte langt nede i den irrgrønne regsnkogen, på toppen av fjellet var alt vulkansvart og på andre siden ventet en endeløs rød ørken. Det var skummelt. Vi visste at det kom til å ta flere uker å krysse ørkenen, sier den amerikanske forfatteren til Dagbladet.
19-åringene slår opp teltet i lille Cline Falls. Ved midnatt bråvakner de av en bil som kjører på dem. Noen kaotiske minutter seinere, står en svær mann over dem med ei øks i hånda. Han går til angrep. Jentz husker den blodige natta i detalj, men venninna lider av hukommelsestap. Når Jentz vil fortelle, forsvinner venninna ut av livet hennes.
- Det føltes forferdelig vondt. Hun avviste både meg og historien vår. Jeg tror det var hennes avvisning som trigget etterforskningen, jeg måtte finne mennesker som ville lytte, sier Jentz.
Dro tilbake
Gjerningsmannen blir aldri tatt. Jentz sliter med minnene som hjemsøker henne. Femten år seinere, reiser hun tilbake til byen hvor hun nesten ble drept. Der oppdager hun at mange mener å vite hvem som står bak overfallet.
- Etterforskningen ble en besettelse. Jeg ville ha rettferdighet, men jeg var også på jakt etter alle bitene i puslespillet. Jeg måtte kjenne hele historien for å få ro, sier Jentz.
Sakte, men sikkert nærmer hun seg den mistenkte.
- Jeg var livredd på ett tidspunkt. Jeg hadde akkurat møtt min mistenktes søster. Jeg visste det var risikabelt, men jeg måtte bare. I dagene etterpå følte jeg meg fanget av minnene, jeg var lammet av skrekk, sier Jentz.
Til slutt står hun ansikt til ansikt med øksemannen.
- Det var en sterk opplevelse. Jeg ble nesten drept, men i stedet for å leve resten av livet i frykt for alt og alle, kunne jeg fra den dagen navngi trusselen. Det var veldig viktig for psyken min, sier Jentz.
Saken var for gammel
Da hun endelig fant ham, var saken blitt for gammel. Øksemannen ble aldri straffet. I 1997 bidro Jentz til å få loven endret, men det hjalp ikke hennes sak.
- Han er en fri mannn. Og en voldelig mann.
- Hvordan vet du det?
- Jeg følger fortsatt med. Jeg vil vite hvor han er.
Hendelsen forandret ikke bare livet hennes, også personligheten.
- Da jeg dro på telttur som 19-åring var jeg ei egenrådig og modig jente, kanskje litt arrogant. Jeg hadde høye tanker om meg selv og var sikker på at jeg kunne nå dit jeg ville, sier Jentz.
- Hvem er du i dag?
- Hjertevarmen har steget mange hakk. Jeg var ikke et følelsesmenneske som ung, ikke spesielt sympatisk heller. I møtet med menneskene under etterforskningen, utviklet jeg en enorm empati for andre. Men jeg så også ondskap. Før trodde jeg alle mennesker kunne bli bedre mennesker. Det tror jeg ikke lenger, sier Jentz.
Hun begynte på Yale Universitetet tidlig på 70-tallet.
- Jeg trodde kvinnekampen var ferdigkjempet. Jeg tok det for gitt at menn og kvinner var likestilte. Sannheten er at vi har tatt flere skritt tilbake. Jeg oppfordrer alle unge kvinner til å kjempe, enten det er mot kjønnslemlestelse i Afrika eller vold i norske hjem, sier Jentz.
Hun engasjerer seg i den verdensomspennende organisasjonen «Equality now». http://www.equalitynow.org/
Inspirert av Hamsun
Jentz fyller 50 år i sommer.
- Nå som historien min er skrevet, vil jeg starte et nytt liv. Fra nå av skal jeg leve som den virkelige meg, det jeg'et som jeg selv har skapt i søken etter sannheten, sier Jentz.
Nå skriver hun boka om til film. Men når manusarbeidet er ferdig, vil hun bli forfatter på heltid. Jentz har et annet dokumentarprosjekt i tankene. Hennes største inspirasjonskilde er den tyske forfatteren W.G. Sebald, som er kjent for en stil hvor han blander fiksjon og fakta. Knut Hamsuns bøker står også i amerikanerens bokhyller.
- Det er mange psykologiske betraktninger i boka mi. Knut Hamsun skriver veldig godt om menneskets psykologi i «Sult». Det er stort å komme til Oslo, gå i gatene hvor han vandret og sultet. Jeg kunne også funnet på å gjøre det. Og du, dette sier jeg ikke bare fordi jeg er i Norge. At Hamsun inspirerte meg har jeg sagt til journalister verden over, sier Jentz.
Les mer om Jentz og bokprosjektet hennes på http://www.strangepieceofparadise.com/
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Reactions
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Why do you think you and your friend reacted so differently afterwards?
Innsendt av: Jon
Terri
Justice
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Isn't it difficult for you to accept that this man never will be punished for what he's done?
Innsendt av: jens
Terri
Dark side
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Hi Terri,
do you understand why there must be some evil people living among us in this world ?
Innsendt av: Rune
Terri
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Hello.
I wonder,- have your friend at last accepted / been able to remember what happened?
Are you having friendly contact today?
Vigdis.
Innsendt av: Vigdis R. Aaneland
Terri
Two Questions
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1) Your first book was a documentary, you also say that you will continue writing books, with another documentay in mind. Can you reveal anthing at all what that book will be about?
2) Do you have any idea why this man attacked you and your friend in the desert, other than he is a violent person? Do you know why he was out there in the desert? was it a random, or deliberate attack? Why did he wound you and not kill you? What kind of a life does he lead, now that you know his identity, after having performed such a vicious and unprovoked attack on you two girls?
Thank you.
Innsendt av: Frank K. Hvidsten
Terri
Kill him
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Why dont you arrange to have him killed ? If I where you, I will use the rest of my life to hunt him down. Sorry to be so frank - but thats me.
Innsendt av: Ola
Terri
Impressed!
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Hi!
Having survived an attack by a madman myself I have a good idea of how difficult it must have been for you.
I would just like to express my admiration for the way you have dealt with this, and I look forward to reading your book!
I assume the search for the crazy person forced you to deal with your fears, but did the writing of the book help with being able to put it behind you..?
Been thinking of writing myself, as a way of trying to get rid of the fear I still feel at times ¿ so it would be interesting to know how the process of writing contributed to your readiness for moving on¿
Thx!
And I really wish you all the best!!!!
Innsendt av: Ann Kristin
Terri
Cline Falls
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Where you at the wrong place at wrong time or did he follow you? What happened to your friend, are you still friends or?
How do you feel now after you found out who did it? How is his respond to what he has done and also what does his sister say towards this. Especially since since he was never convicted? People like this probably do not have a conscience. I hope you feel better by writing this book and I wish you all the best for the future. BE STRONG
Innsendt av: Solveig Solheim
It's true that people like him have no conscience. Soon the diagnosis of "psychopath" will be added to the diagnostic manual of psychiatric disorders.
Terri
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Hi!
It's amazing to read about what you're doing now after the things you've been through. I can't imagine how it is, and how it was that night 30 years ago. I really admire you from what I've read today. And I agree in that todays equality has gone many steps backward. It's sad because with the modern world we have got today, you shouldn't believe it's possible.
I was wondering about, how did your family react after what happened that night? Did you get the support you needed?
It's allright if you don't want to answer my question. And sorry for my english!!
Sylvia
Innsendt av:
Terri
Revenge
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Have you ever had the thought of getting revenge? Outside the law? When the case is to old to bring him to justice, is there any feeling that creves revenge in another way? I know I would want him to pay somehow.
Innsendt av: Chris
Terri
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Hi Terri, I admire your courage, both in meeting the violent man again, and in writing you own story. How will you describe all the years between the attack and before you started your own investigation? And how did you start writing your story - was it difficult? Looking forward to reading your book. Is it all documentary or mixed with fiction?
Innsendt av: Marie
Terri
Curious about the reaction on the axe-man
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Hi there!..
First of all.. i'm very impressed that you went after the axe-man, tracking him down.. and i can surely understand that this helps with questions, understanding and at last.. your psyche..
I'm just enthralled by your story and just have to know what reaction the axe-man had when you encountered him ?
I know already by now that will defenately read your book ^^..
Thank you if you take your time to answer..
Innsendt av: Zarfan
Terri
How was it meet him again?
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How was to meet him again? Did you talk to him? Did he apologize or anything like that?
Innsendt av: George
Terri
Your frind
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Are you in contact with here now?
Innsendt av: gretha
Terri
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Hello. I admire your project much. I could see that you are in Oslo till tomorrow. Do you have any plans for this evening? I would love to share a meal with you.
Innsendt av: Jacob Hanssen
Terri
I just want to say
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that I think you are a really brave woman !
You did what I would not dare if it was me that was in your shoes..
I cannot wait to start reading your book!
Good luck with the movie-project!
Innsendt av: Hilde i Trondheim
Terri
How did the guy react?
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The article says that you found the guy that did this to you... How did he react? Did you speak to him about what he did? ...
I guess it says in the book though... :-)
Innsendt av: Ludvig
Terri
jaha
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wonder if you would still be arrogant if you hadn't been attacked? think it was a wake up call for you??
Innsendt av: Fritz
Terri
Hi!
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Hi, I don't really have any questions for you, I just wanted to you know how impressed I am with what you've achieved. You didn't give up, and you managed to find the truth. I'm definetly going to read your book!
Innsendt av: Elin H
Terri
Writing
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To Terri Jentz - do you think writing this book have had a therapeutic effect? Do you recommend writing to people who have suffered from violence or other traumatic incidents?
What will be the main difference between the book and the film?
Yours Gerd
Innsendt av: Gerd Johnsen
In the case of autobiographical writing, giving my story to the public, who now share it with me, have relieved me of a huge burden.
The film will be able to focus on subtle behavioral gestures, for example i can show the young cowboy exhibiting great charm, and then show in a slight scene of subtle behavior, how menacing he really is. i will also focus more on the culture of the 1970s in the american West, when the culture was in flux between the conversative cowboy west and the rock and roll, hippy drug culture that was moving in from the urban areas....just to name a couple of differences
Terri
Warning others?
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If you're sure about your attackers identity, and also have a reason to believe he is still violent, why haven't you published his name, picture and contact details to the general public to prevent such an atrocious attack from happening again?
Innsendt av: Øyvind



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